Shit happens,its life.

Its been almost 20years since i was born. Once in a while,a conversation start within the family,hopefully ends peacefully. Today,was one of the days when i happen to be at home when my mum was going to push some old newspapers and printed ones to sell at a this collection factory if thats what its called. I was playing my game till she told me that she going out for awhile. i went to the door, saw her pushing trolley stacked with ard 40kg at least amount of papers, she lost weight working herself so was my dad. i was stunned for a moment, feeling everything falling on me. She went off. Alone. i ran after her, help push it to the factory and thats when i experience how hard she was trying to earn money for us, to at least provide what she could for her children.Pushing 40kg uphill 200m under the hot sun for just $10. over the years she was all worn out trying to give us a comfort life. the only thought that came to me was why am i not able to give them a better life,which was why i regretted playing my life away in poly. As a family we all struggled. Financially. Emotionally. Im grateful that im born to ur child mum.i hope i can live up to provide a good life for u folks. Its brittle. Harsh. Fatigued. and a fair share of love. Its Poor family life. Where sacrifices are made for a little moment of warm.

NoCamera,Givesmenowindowtoexpress

NoDance,NoPopping,Givesmenomotiontovent

NoPiano,Givesmenomomentofpeace

NoMoney,Nonothing

NoHealth,Nocomfort.

Thetimes,whereIcanfloatfreelyonwatermightjustneverbeback.notwithtiscondition.

Iamfightinghard.sohardInearlywornout..

Intislife,ifoughthard.butnotenoughtolivewithnoregrets.

Thepain,theburden,onmesohard,icantevenstandtall.

TheoneIloved,Ileftandletgo,Iamforcedtogo.

Livinglife,withnosoul.

Drowned.Liveindaysoffuneral.

Ilivedinpain.ATormentedOne.

Everyday.becameadaywellfoughtedfor.

IwantmyyearsbackasaClassclown,laughinghard.

AsIknew,itcantbetrue.Ibrokedown.

OnlyifIcould.Giveallmyeverything.toeveryoneIknew.

Tillmyfinalyearandnothingleft.

Soastobreakalldespair.Andnotliveinvain.

beggedthatnooneelsehavetogothroughallIhad.